Hurricane Katrina: A Refugee’s Lament

hurricane-katrina-category-5I’ve been ruminating about Hurricane Katrina, and my life, and how the two are entwined together, recently. It’s been roughly four years since the storm hit New Orleans, when the water ripped through the city and ripped the life I was building in the Big Easy from its roots, hurling me back to Baltimore. It’s been a long four years.

I spent the Friday before the storm hit celebrating my last day working for the Slidell Sentry-News, a suburban daily that storm surge would eventually wipe away. Tulane University’s publications department hired me as an editor for their alumni magazine, but my new job didn’t start until the following Thursday, in the first days of September. In celebration, I was going to party with friends, drink myself stupid and see the Drive-By Truckers perform at Tipitina’s, a hard scrabble music venue at the corner of Napoleon and Tchoupitoulas in Uptown.

I drank too much whiskey that night, and remember only about 20 minutes of the Truckers’ set before blacking out. But the whirl of Katrina’s doppler radar patterns, broadcast on the local news, on the TV at Miss Mae’s is indelible. The storm was originally plotted to hit east of the city, somewhere between Mississippi and the Florida panhandle, and it wasn’t until Saturday when the prediction changed to a beeline for New Orleans. That same Saturday, saturated from beer and whiskey shots, I could barely move from my bed. Ashley, my girlfriend then, finally forced me up about 6 p.m., and I bitched like cranky baby during the 10 hour slog to Houston. I left my car and most of my possessions in the city. In my time in New Orleans I had evacuated three times, twice to Houston and once to Little Rock, and rode out a handful of tropical storms. This was going to be another one of those episodes.

I spent the next week with Ashley and her mother locked up in a motel room in Texas. The storm hit, the city went to hell. Families in other rooms in our motel were forced to split apart, or move to new states. Houston residents dropped off donations at the motel front lobby. Unable to go back to New Orleans, Ashley and I decided to meet friends in Dallas, then to Tennessee before landing in Baltimore for good.

Tulane called me a few weeks later. My new position was one of the first ones cut to help the university stay solvent. Over 7,000 other jobs were eventually cut from Tulane’s payroll. I returned to Baltimore with no car, no home and no job, just a few personal items and my college debt. To help with living expenses I took $2,000 from FEMA relief, but because my apartment lease was lost in the storm they forced me to pay them back, a situation that I fight four years later.

I never dealt with the storm or its aftermath effectively. Three times I went back to New Orleans in the fall of 2005, to clean and visit, but I haven’t returned to the city since. It’s too hard. In Baltimore, they turned DuBurns Arena into a survival center, and I had to pick through donated clothes since I left most of my clothes in the South. For a brief period I used an Independence Card because I didn’t have money for food. Later, My relationship crumbled in part because of my unemotional response to what had happened to us. I drank too much, and alone too often, when I returned to Baltimore. Now, thinking about my life before the storm, and where my life could have gone if the Katrina didn’t hit, it still depresses me.

But there was an event I had forgotten about that I recently recalled, after having a rough night out drinking with friends. Soon after Ashley and I settled in Baltimore, my friend Ben hosted a party at his old apartment in Towson. Unbeknownst to me, my friends collected their extra cash, and donated about $200 to help in our move up to the Northeast. It was a small gesture, but one of unadulterated kinship. I tend to let dark moments engulf me, but moments like the ones my friends provided help me, and I’m not afraid to lean on those memories.

I miss New Orleans. I miss my old life, the way my hand was being dealt at the time. For many people like me, Katrina’s affects are more devastating and longer reaching than were first apparent. Some pain hides in the underbrush, forcing itself up into air, while also quietly eating at psyche. The residue of survivor’s lament. And today, four years later, I’m just thankful for life, and for living, and for friendship.

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3 responses to “Hurricane Katrina: A Refugee’s Lament

  1. Todd Marinovich

    Things happen for a reason G. Hunter. You seem like a sports fan, so I’ll refer you to a 60 minutes interview with Pete Carroll- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y-wIAL0Dfsw.

    If you go to the 3:15 mark, he mentions how being fired from the Jets was the best thing to happen to him. He also mentions that he feels that something good is always right around the corner. This might sound a little far-fetched, but maybe Katrina is the best thing to have happened to you. Surely there are positives in being back in Baltimore, employed, and around friends who perform selfless acts like taking up donations following a relocation? Maybe something great is right around the corner for you?

    • Thank you for the link. I wouldn’t say that Katrina is the ‘best’ thing that’s ever happen to me. Being forcefully torn from your has always been one of those human, historical scars. I mean it’s at the core of the pain behind American slavery and the Israel-Palestinian conflict, being torn from “home.” You learn human experience, and you dig at the heart of friendship. These good things.

  2. Ashley Beckerman

    Remember I locked my keys in my car right on the border of Texas and LA…I can’t remember the town’s name, but it got washed away in Rita a few weeks later. Crazy memories! I feel like it took longer than 10 hrs to drive to Houston. God, you were so hungover. And, watching the weather channel at Miss Maes with my Tulane co-workers was so surreal. That was also the night that Whit was screaming obscene names to me outside your house b/c I was sleeping and locked you out. Lord! It’s all coming back to me now like it was yesterday. You write it so well. You always have.

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